Enlightenment Can Lead To Arrogance

What is enlightenment? I see it as a state of constructive contentment.

That is, being constructive—making some sort of contribution—and feeling satisfied at the same time. One of the things about this state of being is that it feeds on itself. If I am content and constructive in this moment, I am likely to be content and constructive in my next moment. My cycle feeds forward, moment-to-moment.

But, surprisingly, enlightenment can lead to arrogance when I feel so pleased with myself that I stop equally valuing the roles of other people. I become impatient, even rude, which is totally unnecessary, but this is just what happened yesterday.


I started my day by calling a neighbor who I have not seen or spoken to in a long time, but I know that his wife is in the final stages of dying. I called to express my concern for both of them and to offer assistance. I felt content having taken constructive action. I did not regret that I should have called him earlier and I did not make myself anxious about the future prospects of facing the death of my wife, Hannah. I stayed present.

Later in the day Hannah and I drove to town to do some Christmas shopping and buy a Christmas tree. I like to buy our tree just a couple of days before Christmas. Hannah thinks this is because I’m frugal. Maybe. But, because I felt in an enlightened state I did not feel defensive about being referred to as frugal.

We talked in the car about how fortunate we are. We’re thoroughly enjoying our lives, treating each other well, and both of us are more awake than any other time in our lives. Awake? What that means is we see every room of our house anew each time we enter, even though we’ve lived in our house for over four years. We feel the texture of our sheets when we get into bed each night and the texture of the floor when we get out of bed and stand up in the morning. We feel each other’s texture every time we hug. Our glances into each other’s eyes last a second longer than when we’re on autopilot.

Life is good—and here’s the thing—not for any particular reason. It’s not as if Oprah decided to endorse my book. It’s not as if my lower back pain has gone away. In fact, we’re both making an effort to get in our car butt first, this is something older people do to avoid the twist and turn motion that can cause pain. We’re getting older.

So everything isn’t ideal, but life is good because we appreciate what we have, we do work we love, we treat each other well, we feel as if we are making a positive contribution, and we focus on what we have, not what we don’t have.


So, where does the arrogance come in? I’m getting to that. We went shopping for our grandson, looking to buy him a bicycle. One store after another . . . the salespeople tell their story . . . until finally we end up back at the store we started at because they are the only ones with affordable bikes in a town where—apparently—many people spend $500 buying bikes for ten-year-olds. But, not me . . . remember I wait until a few days before Christmas to buy our Christmas tree.

By time the fourth salesperson of the day starts telling us why it costs more money to go from a twenty-four inch frame to a twenty-six inch frame, I say, “I don’t care why, we’ll take the twenty-four inch.”

He tries again, “But it’s helpful to know that…”

I interrupt him; “It’s not helpful to me, so we’ll just take this one.” I’m so content in my own life that I feel I have the right to speak dismissively to this man. Enlightenment leads to arrogance.

In the car ride home, after picking up our Christmas tree, it felt chilly to me—not because it was cold—but because Hannah shared her perception that I was rude to the man in the store. What could I say? I attempted to justify my behavior, but of course she was right. I didn’t tell her that. I stewed, looking for a better justification. We got home, I went to my office, picked up my phone and called the salesperson to apologize for being impatient and rude. He said, “Oh sir, it wasn’t a problem. I let water run off my back and down the river all day long.” To me, that confirmed that I’d been rude.

Hannah actually knew the salesperson from years earlier. He used to sell real estate, but now, at sixty-two he was working in a retail store selling bikes. She told me that his wife died four years earlier. He is now raising his kids without her. I know that because he told me about his boys and how much they would have liked a bike like the one we were buying for our grandson. He’s a human being—being human, and I have no right to treat him as if what’s he’s doing is less valuable than what I’m doing.

One of the principles of Live Conscious is that we can redo ourselves.. So if we conduct ourselves in ways we don’t feel good about, we can immediately go back, take responsibility, and conduct ourselves in a new way. I feel good that I called the man at the store so I could apologize. And I feel good that Hannah brought my arrogance to my attention.

It’s a slippery slope from enlightenment to arrogance and I’ll be more mindful in the future.

Also, I’ll add to my definition: enlightenment is constructive contentment that’s a continuous work in progress.

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3 Responses to Enlightenment Can Lead To Arrogance

  1. two of 14 January 4, 2012 at 11:40 am #

    I’m finding it interesting how compelled I am to respond to your letter about arrogance…surely needing to look more at myself!

    I had to reread your letter to figure out what had piqued me so much. I found that, for me , the whole letter had a tone of arrogance. Let me explain. In the section headed “Enlightenment”, I’ll refer specifically to the first, third and last paragraphs all of which were before you started to talk about arrogance. I refer to the comments, ” I did not regret…I stayed present”, “I felt in an enlightened state…I did not feel defensive” and ” We focus on what we have, not what we don’t have”. Each has an “aren’t I wonderful” feel to it…is it arrogance? I don’t know but it felt it to me.
    It’s one thing to feel/do those things and to compose oneself well. But, why did you have to TELL people about how well you compose yourself? Do you tell yourself/believe it was for the sake of the story – for the greater good?…whatever.
    For me, it gave your whole letter a tone of self importance/ arrogance, and I consider you a very enlightened person. One thing is for sure… enlightenment is a slippery slope!

    • Jake Eagle January 4, 2012 at 5:25 pm #

      Well, thanks for your comments. You ask why I had to tell people about how well I compose myself. For me, that was the point…that I was feeling really good about the way I was conducting myself. I called this “enlightenment,” according to my own definition. You sense that it was more arrogance. If you’re correct, the tile of the piece should be “Arrogance can lead to more arrogance.”

      From my point of view, I didn’t start with arrogance, I started with satisfaction and pride. But then I devolved into treating someone poorly.

      Was I arrogant in sharing this with you? I don’t know. I feel that I was honest, telling you about my experiences. To say that I’m proud of my conduct does not feel to me the same as arrogance.

      I suggest you try expressing the ways you are proud of yourself and see what comes up for you. See if you feel arrogant or just appreciative of yourself, and then let me know.

  2. Jaap January 14, 2015 at 7:23 am #

    I was rude to someone recently… felt sorry about it and silently wished I could make up for it or just apologize.

    30 minutes later.. I met the same guy in a complete different place. Of course I apologized and it felt good.

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